My dear Sister, though I do not understand your situation but I do know, pray, and hope that the hurting actions of others will not hinder your ability to thrive in the Love that God has through others and for you. People can be poisonous, but Love (God) is the antidote. Hope to see y'all at the retreat.It is it just hurts when people talk about honesty and such and people talk out of both sides of their mouth.